NADA SOU SOU... sweet

i'm happy. there's half day today. i went home, surf-ed the net, slept. then i met wanting. and i've finally watched 'NADA SOU SOU'. i love japanese movies (just remember to discount horror ones like 'nightmare detective') it was sweet and lovely, with a tinge of sadness at the end. whatever, a nice pleasant movie to cheer me up. (:

jyun is my jap teacher. i'm learning simple jap from her. so fun! i like jap words too. they look so cute.

back to my outing with wanting. i miss her loads! haha and yes she's grown prettier YET AGAIN. ahahaha. and i bought a miniature coin machine. u know the kind u put in coins and turn the machine and get a toy? yeah i got one of those now. just that it's puny.

kinda got over my smu results. i feel determined to study hard and achieve better grades. well who doesn't anw? haha(:

i am sad. how is contribution judged? based on looks, smile, the way u open your mouth, the number of words u speak? i don't understand... really.

Friends come and go

These two weeks are gonna be a whirlwind. i'm very scared and afraid that i can't cope. there's SMU final exams and SYF guitar practices and mini tests in between and napfa (for some reasons, i always have a phobia for it). i want to excel in them, yet, i'm afraid of the failure if i can't perform up to it. everytime i think about them, and how they are killing me, i feel really bad. because i know i'm not trusting God. and then again i ask myself, 'why are they so important to me?' i know for a thousand reasons why they are important, but does it matter to God after all? cos' deep down, i know what matters to Him actually is my heart of worship.

this just sounds so simplified from the way i type, but in fact, there's a whole lot more inside me thinking, thinking, thinking..... ugh.

whatever it is, i'll trust and lean on Him! anyway it's Easter Day today! congrats to my church friends who took the step of faith and got baptized! really happy for them.

i got a shock/surprise today as well. i don't exactly know what happened. but all of a sudden, we are separated by oceans. i'm too busy to find out more but i know i'll miss my friend. it's becoming more real to me, that friends come and go. not in the sense that they go out of my life, but it's just that i can't always expect them to stay. we all have our dreams and aspirations to pursue. well, to my friends, before u do something really major, please do give me mental preparation. at least i wouldn't feel so... ... (wait i haven't sorted out this feeling yet) haha -.-.

but anyhow, i wish my friend all the best and i know we'll still keep in touch. i'll miss her loads!!! well, i'm just waiting for 19 april to pass and i'll be as happy as a lark.

good day folks.